Biggest Loser workout!

WOW...i just did the biggest loser workout, and it was INSANE. I feel amazing! I did the warm up, which really gets you going, then the beginning cardio, and ended with the cool down. It was supposed to be 5, 25, 20 mins, but i think they round up when they estimate, because the work out def. seemed more like about 40-42 mins long all together instead of 50. However, even though i did the beginniner's cardio, it was awesome! Totally kicked my butt! I did it with my mom and we were both really pushing ourselves, and i won't lie, i was completely covered with sweat. I'm glad to say that i was able to do probably about 90% of all the movements...I've just found that my quads are shaky and my balance needs some work. So i could say a lot about it, but im going to keep this short. All in all, it was an amazing workout. I'm excited to see what else it holds.
In general, the last couple of days have been good, i've worked out already 3 times this week counting today, and will go to the gym 2m and possibly add in a workout on sat. to make it 4 or 5 for the week. Right now the most important thing is to not burn myself out like i have done in the past and not give up. I feel great tho, and have decided to up my workout's to 4x per week, but if i only get in 3, its ok. Just a minimum of 3, no less! Food has been decent, today food was find. I went out after my midterm w/ a friend, got an omelette...but it came with a huge side of home fries and 2 pancakes! This place is amazing! I had to take 5 mins to talk myself into NOT getting pancakes. I instantly asked for a to go box, threw in the pancakes, half of the HUGE 4 egg(at least!) omelette, and 3/4 of the potatoes. Even after that, i only ate 1/2 of what was on the plate. So i was happy, and later at work i was really good. Just some soup, greek salad, and some chicken salad. All in all, i've decided to try and wean myself off the scale b/c its been all over the place, and i think that mentality is hurting me, not helping me. So I think i may even cut back to weighing myself once every 2 wks, or once a week max, and just see how my clothes sit.
Ok, off for a shower and bed. Hope everyone has a great friday!

I've decided...

So I've decided that even though I'm ok with getting to my goal of 130-140 any time during the summer, I'd REALLY REALLY like to be 150 by my 18th birthday, which is May 29th. So I've got about four months to lose about 30-35 lbs...yea, i have no idea what my real wieght is right now. On monday, I was 184.5, on tuesday, after a great workout and eating day on monday, i was 181ish, which i thought was pretty insane and i didn't know if i believed, and today, after an ok day yesterday, i was 186. So as i don't think im gaining and dropping 5 lbs in a day, I've decided to TRY and avoid the scale for at least the rest of the week.
I've a little stuffed up and congested, which has really dropped my energy level, so i don't really want to pay much attention to what im eating and drinking. Plus i have no energy to study for midterms, but that's another story. Yesterday was a scheduled rest day, and eating was ok...i had some raw cashews for breakfast, then i bought a pack of poptarts during the break in between midterms (i promise, i was really hungry and it was the MOST nutrious thing there.......i so avoided the candy cookies and chips!) For lunch i had the rest of my salad from monday night w/ a little bit of homemade liver pate that my mom made which was awesome! Later, i had a snack of some clementines and another handful of nuts. For dinner, i had plain salad and more liver pate. Later, i had a single square of dark chocolate and some celery w/ peanut butter. So really it was just the poptarts that were bad Tuesday. The other bad thing was that i barely drank ANY water. Not the best thing to do.
Today, i didn't eat any breakfast, and for lunch i went to panera and had half a ceasar salad and half a chnx sandwich. Plus chips AND a piece of bread. With a diet coke. lol. Not the best meal- a lot of bread and carbs in general. I could've done a lot worse though, so i guess its ok. I could've had a burger and fries or something even worse. I'm heading to the gym now, and im going to make sure that for the rest of the day i eat healthy, and I'm going to make sure i drink ALOT of water. Hopefully the rest of today will counteract the bad stuff yesterday and today.
I'm going to be glad when midterms and this cold are done so i can get back to a normal schedule! For now, I'm just going to do the best i can. I'm going to estimate that with the bugged out scale, I'm still at about 184, so I'd really really really love to be at 180 by the end of the month!

Sweet Success!

I've finally broken through the damn 187-190 range, and am now swinging b/t 184-185 on my NON digital scale (which is soon to be replaced as soon as i get a 20% off coupon from bed bath and beyond). Other than that, this weekend was fantastic eating, only 3 choc. covered cherries. I didn't get any excercise in because i ended up working double this weekend, so i couldn't really do anything else but relax....which was needed with a capital N. I'm feeling great right now, because i have to think that this was the healthiest day of my life! I drank my 64 oz of water, went to the gym between school and work since we had a half day, and this was the meal:

B: raw cashews b/t midterms
L: Sushi ( 6 pc california roll, 6 pc terriyaki chnx) w/ a diet coke
S:2 cup chnx broth w/ a slice of ww tst 1/2 pad of butter
S:banana
D: 1/2 of my grilled chnx w/ sesame seeds and chik peas over toss salad

The best part of the day was when i avoided buying junk b/t my midterms, said no to my friends fries, got myself to the gym even when it went lying about a doctor's appointment as to why i was late to work, and not eating any junk when i was bored b/c work was slow

Fantastic day! I am so determined to be below 180 by the end of the month!

Sunday

B: 1 serving corn flakes w/ 1 cup skim milk
S:1.5 cup chocolate milk w/ skim milk
1 serving chocolate covered cherries (2 pcs)
L: 1/2 beef gyro w/ greek salad wrap
1 sm cup coleslaw
Planned:
D: 3 oz. lean lamb w/ salad w/ olive oil or ff ranch
S: apple or clementines

32 oz. of water so far, will try to double that before the day is over
Will do first BL dvd workout!

First official weigh-in 2m!

The numbers game...

So I've figured out that according to the Biggest Loser diet/excercise program, I need to eat under 1310 calories a day. I think I'm going to actually try and do this at a more structured pace. Structure helps me. So I guess that means that I need to start writing down what I eat, and its nutrition facts...also what has always mistified me was portion sizes. I could never do the 8 oz./ i tbs/ect thing. They say everyone has trouble with it in the beginning though, so maybe after a few weeks I really will be able to eyeball stuff. We just bought a new scale for the kitchen, so that should help with the food. I'm worried. I don't know if im strong enough to do this. I want it so badly, and im going to try hard. I really am. I mean, if I lose an average of two pounds a week, for the total wieght loss of 52 pounds, that is 26 weeks, which is about 6.5 months. That should put me right in the middle of the summer. I said that hitting my goal wieght was targeted for the early summer, so there's no problem there. I know what foods are healthy and what are not, and I like to excercise...what scares me about the excercise is that it just seems like SO much more than I've EVER done. So the plan is simple:
Eat right- smaller portions, 4-6 times a day
Log the food and calorie intake- at all times. Come home and figure it out if need be on fitday
Excercise at least 3x per week. This number will increase to 4 and then to 5. Maintaining will be decided when i reach goal
Weigh in offically once a week- this will be Monday, which will hold me accountable on weekends, AND hopefully make me look forward to Monday :)
Stay positive- get back up one more time than i fall
Try to learn something new about nutrition/excercise each week
Blog as often as possible
Drink water or diet stuff only
Build self confidence, and willpower!
Make a list of rewards/ goals that will be based on non-food rewards
Learn to love myself and be a more organized and happier person

**This will be edited as many times as necessary to meet my goal

Today

Today was not the best day eating wise....I had a bagel this morning, but with nothing on it.

Later on, because i was on a trip, i sucumbed to the urge when we went into the candy store (!) and bought about a $3.00 worth of bulk candy....which i can tell you, i only ate most of the choclate from that, and then THREW out the jelly beans! I was kinda proud of myself for that...i didn't want it, so i didn't have it. Had i kept it, i would've eaten them. But really, these chococlate cravings are puzzling me. I NEVER had these, even when its TOM. Later on, for lunch pple wanted chinese food, but i went down the hall (we went to NBC studios @ rockefeller center, where they light the tree, for those of you who don't know....and we saw all the studios which was cool, and we went into the late breaking news one and the conan o'brien studio which was cool....but anyway, i went down the hall, got myself a can of diet sprite and a turkey sand. with tomato, field greens, fat free honey mustard dressing, and avacado on multigrain. It was awesome :) After that i had a sugar free/fat free jello cup at home, and when i went to a meeting at school, we'll that was where i hit the trouble spot. I was starving for some reason, which im usually not by that point in the day. I knew i should have just stayed away from the food, but i didn't. And so, i had... hm, about an 8 in. turkey and cheese sand on a hero, a bag of sunchips, and a brownie. A BROWNIE...once again, it was the damn chocolate. Anyway, I checked my cals and stuff on fitday, and i realized that even with the bad stuff, i ate about 2000 calories. So def. nto a great day to go down in the books, but overall, a bad day could have been a horrible day. I could've eaten chinese food, a lot more candy, cookies at the meeting, another brownie, and i could've drank more soda/non-diet stuff instead of water the rest of the day. I'm really trying to learn to accept when i have bad days, but also look at the good. AND tomorrow i WILL eat only good stuff and kill myself at the gym. And i plan to do the same thing over the weekend. I WILL BE 180 lbs by the end of the month. It's going to happpen. I will not fail because of chocolate lol.

I hope everyone has more willpower than me. I really do.
-Milana :)

Huh?

Ok, i am thinking its time for me to abandon my scale, because i was back up to 190 today, and i just don't believe it. I had a great workout again yesterday evening, ate well all day except for some combos... and im sorry, but i don't think i gained three pounds of muscle from one workout lol. It's high time I buy a new scale!
Today I had an epiphany. If I eat something small right after 1st period, i will def. be hungry 3/4th period, and i NEED to have something on me, or I WILL buy candy b/c you can always buy candy in my school. PLUS, they're selling Getrudge Hawk chocolate bars, which are to die for. They are awesome. I had one today :( and three more pieces of chocolate. I don't know what the hell this is...when I ate a lot of crap, i didn't even like chocolate all that much. Now that I've actually achieved cutting out all the other crap, all I want is chocolate! It's horrible...lol. I'm not that upset. This is the beginning of my journey. This is going to be hard. I will suceed.
I can already see little changes in my body. Usually i just lose the weight from my face really quickly, but that hasn't happened yet. However, I instantly felt it in my thighs and my stomach. I'm hoping this means its real poundage coming off?
Today at work when i was eating, i think i ate the first meal of my life where i ate the perfect amount of food. Typically, I'm always FULL. Not stuffed, but i feel the food sitting there. Today at work, i had half a spinach salad w/ light dressing and the bacon, but no croutons, with which i had half a chicken salad sand on pita. I didn't even touch the pita! In fact, i got up and threw it out! If i had left it on my plate, i would have eaten it after five minutes. I know it. So, back to this weird feeling...i just felt completely satisfied, not at all hungry...but not at all like it was too much. I know it sounds weird, i can't completely explain it, but it made me happy. Plus, I usually get hungry for a snack later on...whether it be fruit or whatnot. Today, i don't even want that.
And i only drank water today. That's a first! In general, I've noticed that my food portions are growing def. getting smaller. Maybe they'll even be normal one day soon :)
Ok, im off to do hw. Being a senior sucks when you have no motivation to do ANY work.

MAD!

Bad news first- i got a parking ticket today! It's my first ticket :( [I've only had my license for 5 1/2 months] so I'm pretty annoyed. It's so stupid too! I had gone over the curb and thought that i had come off of it, but apperantly not...there was ice there too, so i guess i had come off the ice and not the curb w/o realizing it...and apperantly, my friend doesn't look down when she gets out of a car, b/c i know i would have noticed instantly if i had been getting out of the passengers side of another car. It's not a big deal, its not a speeding ticket or any kind of violation like that, but that's still $54 dollars for being on the freaking curb! 54?!!! I'm annoyed....hopefully though, that's the worst kind of ticket i'll ever get...
In other news, I'm back DOWN to 187!! Yeay:) I was pretty sure those couple of pounds i gained back would drop quickly, but it was nice to see that happen. I'm hoping that I might even be able to get down into the 170's within the end of the month.
Food yesterday wasn't bad...i think the only bad stuff was a cookie and a couple of choc. covered cherries. It happens :)
Today, i haven't had ANYTHING bad yet. This morning was a single serving box of cereal (cinnamon grahams ~100 cals) with some combos for a snack later on (once again portion controlled size). Lunch was a scoop of chicken salad and some yankee bean soup. I love the fact that we have open campus for lunch and i can come home. Now, when i came home after school, I had a couple of clementines. Very nice and filling. Dinner will be some kind of meat/salad most likely, with a fudgesicle or some fruit if need be later on. Now I am off to the gym, b/c as badly as i want a nap, i won't be able to get there again until friday, so i should go. Plus come on, how can that loss not motivate me?! :)
Lastly im just going to note that while the food im eating (combos lol) may not seem as healthy and 'dietish' as it needs to be, for me the fact that im controlling the portions and eating more often is definitly helping most of all right now. I'm sure that after the first 20-25 lb loss, i will have to watch what im eating even more closely, but i think that i will be so motivated by that point, it hopefully won't be a problem.

Hope everyone else has a wonderful day, stay motivated!

P.S. WORKOUT WAS GREAT! except for when it got cut short by my fathers acquantance who decided to come lecture me about schools and such lol. It was a great workout, im glad i went. Also, very random, my profile views just jumped from 16 to 32! What the eff?

Good day...

I finally got myself to the gym today and had a GREAT workout...im sure that im going to be sore tomorrow. Also, the eatings been good. I had a dannon lite and fit w/ fiber yogurt, a bunch of sunflower seeds, and some cantelope after the gym. Dinner will be some chicken and turkey w/salad, and fruit later on if im still hungry.
With the amount of garbage that i ate last week, i was up to 190, but i already dropped a pound of that b/c i ate well yesterday. Hopefully after the workout and good eating today, i'll be back to my 187 within the week.
I've decided that I also won't start looking for a prom dress until im at least 175, hopefully even less if I buy it in Mid-March somewhere. Hmm, let's see...when i went to senior prom last year w/ a friend, i was in a 12. I'd like to be down to a 9/10 for this year. That would make me very very happy :)
And...last but not least, I'm ordering the biggest loser DVD and a new scale online today!

Stuck in a Rut

I've been feeling really down the last couple of weeks, between the hols and the first week of Jan, but i finally started to feel a little bit better. I had no energy whatsoever and was really starting to freak out, but that has thanfully ended. I've been focusing on just feeling a little bit better mentally before I go and try to do anything else, and I finally feel like I'm at a place where I can assess my goals and really just start taking this journey. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired, unhappy, unhealthy, and insecure.
So now that I'm finally feeling better, I'm going to start getting to the gym again tomorrow, which I'm actually looking forward to. I got some work out clothes for the hols and I just really need the endorphins! Plus, for me, the food and the excercise SO go hand in hand...when I'm not working out I just don't have the motivation to eat right. Sad but true...
The good news is that i've been drinking LOTS more water and just iced tea. No more soda for me...I think i had half a can of diet pepsi this week. I've also been making sure that I'm always eating SOMETHING in the morning, i always used to not eat and then just eat a HUGE meal at lunch. It's easier now that i can just keep 100 calorie snack packs, or granola bars, or bags of nuts in my car and just grab one. I also always have a case of water in my car now too. The bad news is i think i ate more bread and bagels in the last week than I ate in all of December! I wish I knew why I have such issues with food...once i start eating, i throw all caution to the wind and just eat and eat and eat. I really hate it and its hard for me to separate hating myself from hating my actions sometimes. I know that right now, its just really important that i stop being lazy and just work on setting up a routine for myself.
It just amazes me how with anything else, once i set my mind to it, I CAN get it done. Not to sound obnoxious, but I'm an achiever...once I want something, I'll do anything to get it. So why I have so much trouble with putting that same attitude to weight loss i don't know. I just know that when I look back and its June, I'm going to say look at those six months...you could have so easily just started some good eating/excercise habits and you'd be in such a better place now. So, its time to cut that off at the source. I AM STARTING THOSE GOOD HABITS.
The past is the past, and I can't obsess over every single piece of candy, every cookie, or every french fry. It's just time to look to the future, because there are only good things to come.

Scales

Does anyone have any suggetions for a fantastic scale? I want one that is digital, so i know exactly what weight im at. The one we have now in the house, you can't really tell your weight if it isn't on an exact five pound increment.

Thanks!

Working things out

So yay, according to the scale today, i managed to drop the pound i gained, and i think also another one...im not exactly sure lol, i badly need to buy a digital scale...

This week, I'm focusing on just my eating habits. I think that whenever i start to try and excercise and eat 100% right all the time, i just get way in over my head, and drop the ball way too quickly, and then get discouraged and the viscious cycle starts all over again. So just this week, I'm only focusing on the food aspect. I'm going to try and hit the gym a couple of times this week, but if it doesn't happen, then no biggie. I've got to let go of the as-soon-as-i-make-a-mistake-its-over mentality. I'm just hurting myself with that. So with the food, I'm focusing on smaller portions, better choices, more water, and to give myself at least three hours between food and bed. That's all i really have to do...Thankfully, i don't need to go on some strict regiment 1200 calories a day regiment, at least not from what i've done to drop weight in the past...

Yesterday was a good eating day overall. At work in the morning i had a cup of cereal with regular milk, then at lunch i had a crossant (i haven't had one of those in forever, so oh well) a little bit of greek salad that tasted like crap so i didn't eat it at all, and a cup of tomato rice soup. Then at night i went out to dinner with my friends for a birthday, had an iced tea and a water, then ate a little bit of calamari and a sandwich with 1/2 the fries. Def. not the best choices, i know i should have gone for a salad, but then when we decided to get dessert, i knew i didn't really want anything at all and didn't have anything! In the past, i've always gotten something, just to eat, even if i didn't want anything. I've finally started to learn to listen to my body to see if its actually hungry, instead of just stuffing myself to the gills. I know that for me to lose the weight (esp. in the beginning) its not even what i eat (as long as i cut out the complete crap like cake, ice cream, candy, chips ect) but more how much i eat. That's really how i gained all this weight...i don't eat much pasta, bread, potatos ect, I just used to eat such HUGE portions.

I've also realized that as long as im continously dropping weight, its not even important for me to set a date for when i need to lose the weight. I know i said graduation before, but as long as I hit goal at some point during the summer before i leave for school, then I'm going to be happy. As long as the numbers on the scale never go up again, then im good. (And a pound here or there is ok, because i know that water weight and whatnot will affect that). I also know that mentally, as soon as i keep seeing a decrease in that number, i will WANT to work out even more and put more effort into the weight loss because i will want to get to goal even faster.

I'm feeling really good about doing this at a normal, managable pace for me. I'm not going to let this take over my life. If i can lose a couple of pounds a week, then im golden.

Edit:
I've been feeling a little sluggish, and I've been wondering why, but i've realized that its b/c its TOM, and duh, its started. It's nice to see that even with that, im losing some weight :)

Excited!

Ok, so sadly, because of festivities this weekend, i did gain back a pound :( However, I am ok with that, and am sooo looking forward to getting back on track. Jan-March is usually the worst part of the school year for me, becuase it really tends to drag, and now that I've gotten into colleges, and its the second half of my senior year, I don't really want to do much work. So other than worrying about who I'm going to go to prom with (lol), I've been thinking about the fact that I don't really have anything to look forward to until March, where I'll be going to D.C. for a week for school. Then, it kinda just hit me-duh! Throw myself into this weight loss thing completely...there really is no better time right now. So I am really excited right now- If i could just stop pushing it off and saying tomorrow, it would be great. I just need to shut my mouth and stop eating all the crap, and just start exercising a little bit again. I'm looking forward to getting that energy back again...the endorphins really help me out. I'm hoping that if i actually start going to sleep at a normal hour again, it should help, b/c i should have more energy. So to end on a positive note, today is my absolute LAST day where i just think about wanting to lose the weight. It starts tomorrow! Yay!

Also, I was wondering if anyone knows how i can add additional pages for pictures, progress charts, goal charts, ect?Or sidebar it?....I'm reallllly bad at this html stuff lol.

Thanks!